December 2009
115 posts
Thoughts.
1.) Just ran. Now I’m exhausted, don’t even want to drag myself to shower…but all in a good way. I feel pretty good.
2.) What are you thinking?
3.) I’m falling too soon, too fast, too deep. Gotta get a grip on myself. This is bad. I recognize myself as…someone who love easily. An idealist. Sigh
4.) Wow, 5 more followers to 800. Hello to all my new followers!! <3
We weren't meant for forever, but I just thought I'd let you know that I will always remember all the moments that we shared together. You will always have a special place in my heart.
(via runawaytrain)
I'm scared. I'm scared that we might never talk again and I won't feel the same about anyone the way I feel when I'm with you. Most of all, I'm afraid that one day, I'll be nothing more than an old school memory.
(via runawaytrain)
“May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art—write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can; and I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.”
—Neil Gaiman (via fuckyeahhappy) (via bananavan) (via freshbedsheets)
“I love you because I know you’re always there, there to catch me when I fall, there to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone. I love you because you understand me, you know how I feel even when I can’t say it. You know I’m not as strong as I say and still you never let me know that I’m not fooling you. I love you because you make me believe, believe that I am not worthless. Believe that I can be loved, am loved, and can love others. I love you because you know, you know I feel this way but can’t say it and still you wait, letting me take my time to come to terms with the fact that I love you. I would give my life up to be with you, and above all never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you.”
—(via eletheowl)
2009 is coming to an end.
And I don’t know how I feel about that. This year’s been one hell of a roller coaster ride. The earlier part of this year was…horrible. Then it got so much better as time goes by. I feel myself beginning to open, grow up and learning to accept that certain things are just not meant to be.
You. We’ve been through all the ups and downs. We drifted at one point but I guess it just gave us a clearer view of what we really want. Always skeptical about the future when it comes to you. I guess all I can do right now is try to stay positive. Everything will be okay, you said. I made you promise. And you laughed.
I think we’ll be friends for a long long time. I think. I love you, not in the romantic way. But yes, love.
I’ll be having xmas eve dinner with the girls tomorrow. GG is coming over to my house and we’re gonna bake some gingerbread man!! I love her best. I cannot count the times I’ve dialed her number crying and sobbing like a kid. And she’s just really calm and collected. I’m usually laughing after like 5 mins into the call.
I cannot wait. Then i’ll be spending xmas with my family and princess and the frog on Sat…Bernard’s house with the guys on Sun! Everything is going pretty well which is making me even more paranoid about what’s gonna happen but I’ve decided to give myself a break. Live lifeeeee, it’s all going to be good. Everything will be fine - that, I tell myself.
Merry xmas eve, you guys!
“I love you. don’t you see? Don’t you understand? You’re the love of my life. I can’t leave you. But you’re constantly leaving me. You walk away when you want, you come back when you want. You stand by everyone, but you leave me. So I’m asking you, if you don’t see a future for us, if you’re not in this, please. Just end it because I can’t.”
—Grey’s Anatomy (via eletheowl)
“So here’s the deal: with me, it’s all or nothing. I love completely or I don’t love at all, so you have to make a choice. Do you want all of me or none? I know it seems extreme but here’s the thing; you’re the one thing in my life that I’m sure about. For me, there’s no choice cause I’ve already decided. Pick me like I’ve picked you.”
—(via runawaytrain)
When I said go, I really meant stay.
“There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn’t expect you to understand that, or even believe it. But trust me, there are some loves that don’t go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we all should be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity, someone who never lets go, someone who cherishes you forever.”
—(via eletheowl) (via lipslikecherry)
Tell me about your favorite movie? :)
I’m free all day long and I want something that’s worth watching!
When all else fails ______________ ?
"Fuck you"
never sounded this harsh. Especially when it comes from you. I don’t know what else I can do except to sleep it all away. Nothing I do will ever be enough for you. I want you to be happy and I….I attempted every single thing.
